Have you thought about....

Death?

*No, not suicide!!! Life is too beautiful, girl!*

What I meant was... what if, it is THE time. It is YOUR time.

Are you ready? *Hey, it is not about ready or not, is it??*

Last week, I found big lump in my right breast, and it was huuurrrtttt!!!!! I thought about breast cancer :( But can it happen in one night? I browsed the Net and found out that I am in the very very low risk of having one. I am below thirty, breastfed my child, exercise routinely, eat healthy food, no cancer history in my family, am Asian (being a Caucasian will increase the risk).... So, why I had that lump? I usually do self exam on my breasts, and never found anything strange.
Well, now it does not hurt anymore. The lump gets smaller everyday. But I had that thought. What if I got cancer? What if it is not curable? Am I ready to leave this world??

Last night, Abdes almost had an accident. He was driving on GA-400, alone. It was drizzling, so the road was slippery. A car suddenly changed lane, wanted to go the next exit directly. Abdes' car was in their blank spot *always...always...have a thorough check on the rear and side mirror before changing lane!!! My friend hit a car on I-75 last month and lost his car!* He pushed the break and honked that car. He saw two females in the careless car, went away without any responsibility. Abdes' car spinned twice. Alhamdulilah, Thank God, it was a wide road and he stopped in the middle of divided highway. Two cars stopped by and checked him "r u OK, man?" He was alright....safe and sound.
What if????

Well, these are just my rambling thoughts. I realize, the final decision is on HIS hands, it has been written, it is our destiny.

We will never know.

I am now just being thankful for what I've got.